[MuseSick]

Dear Sister,

I've known you for 15 years now- and it seems that our relationship has grown backwards. Usually- a relationship grows in a positive way, you learn more about one another become closer in most cases. I've never felt more distant to anyone in my life. I mean- sure it could be because Mom and Dad have always had their eyes on you, because you're more maintenance than I am, you require more attention because you're in university now, on a scholarship for baseball. It could be the radiating neglect I've gotten from them that makes me loath you. But I know that them focusing on you isn't your choice- you've told me. You wish they'd leave you alone.

But no.. That's not really why I hate you.. Why I can barley stand to sit in the same room as you, and when we talk I have to hold my breath, because I know you're wrong.. You're always wrong..

It started last summer, when I REALLY started to wish you away, to university. When you sat in the car, you, Mum, and I. You were talking about how this guy wanted to date you, and you told Mum that "When I leave for school I only want ties to you, and my friends, not even Maddy." I mean- I had my headphones on, you didn't know I could hear you. But NEVER does it EVER make it okay for you to basically do away with me as if I don't count.

I think it kills me, I mean what kills me the most is when you're down and Mum and Dad are on your back.. I'm ALWAYS the one talking to them, convincing them to lay off, because of anything I can think of. Usually it's true. I tell them what you're thinking- things you don't even realize you think about, things they never knew anyone could think. Yet- All I get from you is a "get lost." I realize, that's how the typical relationship works for siblings.. But couldn't you be more original for a change? No one made you the awful, inconsiderate person you are. You did it to yourself...

But that's not even half of what is awful, I mean even today, in the car, we were driving in a neighborhood which was for lack of better words "Ghetto" or as you said "sketchy" and you turned around and EVERY SINGLE GOD DAMN PERSON, we came by that didn't look like they were up to your standards, or maybe seemed like they were up to know good, you said they were on my team. Yeah- you and Mum thought it was funny, but it wasn't. I mean if that's how you see me, fine, screw you too... Because the way I see you, is no better than the way you judge strangers on the street. The only difference is, is that I know you. I know it's true, what I think of you. But YOU know nothing about them.

I don't know how you got so far in life- socially... I mean you're cold, disrespectful, and inconsiderate. When it comes down to it at the end of the day- I feel sorry for you. Because I may be over emotional, and sensitive.

But at least I know what's right and what's wrong.. At least I'll make real friends, not just people to pass the time with. Hell.. I only wish you luck.. Because you'll get what you deserve, and by then, I'll be so sick of being the better person. That you wont get a helping hand from me.

Love- Your little sister.