[Ginger]

I'm lost, for the most part. I am almost 20 with no previous work experience. Looking for a job is harder than the 14 years of schooling I went through living with my mother and various other family members.

I just want to hide under my blanket, away from everyone. You know, out of sight out of mind.

My job applications are naked. I got an interview with Safeway back in January but applied when I had possible transportation to and from work for the first month until I could get a car but he moved out. I had no other way of getting there. I tried calling them every single day but the person in charge of hiring was never there. I eventually gave up contacting them because I did what I could with what I had but it wasn't enough. I'm now living just a mile away from Safeway, but not for very much longer if I don't land something by the end of the month. Then by the time I'm moved out of here I'll get called for interviews here, but guess what? I won't be here anymore and I'll have to give up those opportunities because I won't have a fucking way to get there and back. It's messed up, my situation. Fucking tired of fingers being pointed at me. They probably skip my application every time they see it now.

It doesn't matter where I go. I can't be happy unless I'm making money, helping out financially, and reaching goals.