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Kaien Shiba · Posted 07-09-2011, 10:38 PM

Dear you,

Yes you, I just wonder why is it that I always get stuck in this position. I do realize I put myself here on multiple occasions but its the hope and the humanistic NEED to be accepted wanted and also feel useful that I keep doing this.if I was stronger this wouldn't affect me but truthfully I know if I was strong enough not to be affect by it, I wouldn't need friends and thus I would become rather lonely.

Despite your words you still sit there and at times I catch it, a word, a phrase an unintentional slip of the tounge and little behaviors that allude to the very obvious fact you look down upon me as being- younger. I am, chronological, and I am still learning and experiencing quite a bit. This however does not mean I'm not as skilled or that I am incompetent. So stop it.

I do DESPISE the fact you have to sit there and say that you dislike being censored however if I were to speak freely I am chastised and you lurch backwards as if I have physically wounded you. Do you not hurt me with your words or your unspoken words to be as an obligation to be silent? We are to be the BEST of friends and in the past I could say 'Hey, this is bothering me" but as I approach you now with a simple soft 'Hey, this is bothering me' I might have incurred the wrath of hell itself! No your wrath is not in the form of anger and flame but tears and 'heart wrenching' sob stories that are exaggerated and untrue but to discredit them would shine me in the light of the villain even more.

I'm triad of being the villain. I'm triad of being your erren boy and doing all that I can to make you happy. More over I'm devastated that it's the you and the ____show whenever we all get together to do something. I didn't want to hear about your last trip together because every 5th sentence was 'oh and we missed you too! it was like we were missing something!" I call FOUL and I say you're lieing just to try to appease me.I WANT you two to have fun yes, but when I tried to date someone all you could do was lament how I was 'pulling away' and yet for ___ I feel discarded and left aside.

suppose she is older then me....therefor more Worldly and to your taste yes? this leaves me..... oh yes on the side like a dog begging for both attention and praise.

Please, help me find a way to tell you to STOP IT because it hurts.

Kaien Shiba Dazed			#183
	Dear you, Yes you, I just wonder why is it that I always get stuck in this position. I do realize I put myself here on multiple occasions but its the hope and the humanistic NEED to be accepted wanted and also feel useful that I keep doing this.if I was stronger this wouldn't affect me but truthfully I know if I was strong enough not to be affect by it, I wouldn't need friends and thus I would become rather lonely. Despite your words you still sit there and at times I catch it, a word, a phrase an unintentional slip of the tounge and little behaviors that allude to the very obvious fact you look down upon me as being- younger. I am, chronological, and I am still learning and experiencing quite a bit. This however does not mean I'm not as skilled or that I am incompetent. So stop it. I do DESPISE the fact you have to sit there and say that you dislike being censored however if I were to speak freely I am chastised and you lurch backwards as if I have physically wounded you. Do you not hurt me with your words or your unspoken words to be as an obligation to be silent? We are to be the BEST of friends and in the past I could say 'Hey, this is bothering me" but as I approach you now with a simple soft 'Hey, this is bothering me' I might have incurred the wrath of hell itself! No your wrath is not in the form of anger and flame but tears and 'heart wrenching' sob stories that are exaggerated and untrue but to discredit them would shine me in the light of the villain even more. I'm triad of being the villain. I'm triad of being your erren boy and doing all that I can to make you happy. More over I'm devastated that it's the you and the ____show whenever we all get together to do something. I didn't want to hear about your last trip together because every 5th sentence was 'oh and we missed you too! it was like we were missing something!" I call FOUL and I say you're lieing just to try to appease me.I WANT you two to have fun yes, but when I tried to date someone all you could do was lament how I was 'pulling away' and yet for ___ I feel discarded and left aside. suppose she is older then me....therefor more Worldly and to your taste yes? this leaves me..... oh yes on the side like a dog begging for both attention and praise. Please, help me find a way to tell you to STOP IT because it hurts.
		Posted 07-09-2011, 10:38 PM