[Chi]

Dear Self,

I had to do this for you... You weren't happy and you didn't want to hear the yelling anymore. The emotional abuse is too much and you don't deserve that... I'm sorry that you wanted things to work, they just won't... Don't think of yourself as any less of a girl, you are a great person, never forget that. If he was the right one, things would have changed by now... You know that this relationship always gets better then falls down harder than before. He makes you happy but at what cost...? You're the one that sacrifices, not him. He's going to realize that he missed out, just like all the others. He says he wants to spend time with you but walks out on you and says he doesn't care right now, then take your space, take your time. Let him come to his senses and let him see what he's missing out on. I love you, you're stronger than this, grieve as much as you want to, stick to your principles though. Feel better. You'll be okay, I promise...