[Airina]

*hugs serra and ulti* I just have been dealing with a lot of things..... pressure from my mom..... disagreements with my roommates..... having my therapist basically dump me...... errrrr well sorta.... i just..... i was supposed to see her on monday.... but she cancelled and can't see me till july 1st.... but even though i'm supposed to see her once a week i'm going to only see her once in june..... and its just really frustrating..... and i'm trying to find a job which sucks..... and i don't feel like anyone around me actually wants me around...... and trying to figure out what to do with school and ish..... and everything is just really confusing and frustrating.... and i just don't know what to do about it all..... and just *sighs* i don't know...... it's all kinda confusing..... and i don't really know if i believe in my family's religion or not.... which is actually really difficult and annoying..... because i had been going to college that was run by our religion, and my parents are super disappointed in me about that.... and i just feel like i don't know anything..... and can't do anything right..... and its so freaking frustrating...... *headwall* and i've been feeling sick lately which isn't very fun on top of all of that..... and i'm just bored out of my mind and my parents are moving down here.... which is gonna suck.... and just everything is just weird..... and i just feel like i don't belong in my own life anymore...... and it's just really really frustrating..... and i feel like nobody wants me to be around anymore.... at least like in my real life..... and i just sometimes feel like it would be better for people if i just wasn't here anymore..... not meaning like suicide or anything like that.... but just like people would be happier if i just moved and was out of their lives for good....... *curls up*