[Vanitas]

I was just diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder a week ago and have never felt happier...well for a while that is.
I want to give out a warning to girls,women, young ladies right now, please be wise in choosing birth control pills/contraceptives. My bipolar disorder was triggered from birth control pills back in February when I discontinued them. Birth control pills change the hormone chemistry in the brain and etc.
Back in February, I began taking birth control pills to be "safe" since I was sexually active with my boyfriend; however, I had to stop birth control within 3 weeks because I developed a yeast infection from the birth control pills; it literally made my body do a flip-flop motion. My anxiety shot through the roof, I was having panic attacks left and right, I thought I was dying, everything felt like it was a dream-state, and I became anti-social and over analyzed things.
I went 2-3 months not knowing what was wrong with me and had a CT, MRI, and EEG performed on me and everything came back perfect. I had thoughts of suicide and thoughts of where I thought I was "evil" or "bad." It truly was a traumatic experience for me and sometimes suicide felt like the right path, but I battled through it and will never stoop that low. Last week, I started taking a mood stabilizer to help get everything back in balance. So far, I've completely transformed back into the me that I love and missed. I no longer want to hurt myself (not that I ever did) or even think about suicide. I just want anyone out there to know about Bipolar Disorder that it IS treatable and you are not the only one and do not suffer alone. You can get through it no matter how dark times may get, anyone can overcome it with love and support but overall determination and confidence in YOURSELF. :)