[Serra Britt]

It's basically a combination of a lot of things at once.

My roommate and I will be moving to a new place this month, which is good for us because our apartment will be right over (well, almost) a dear friend of mine, and it will be nice to be closer to her. The problem is that it's still 2 months before the lease is up and while this is a touristy location and they can probably re-rent the place for just 2 months to someone, if they can't do it I will still be on the line for rent and it's been so tough for me I'm hesitant to ask people to loan me money AGAIN. So I'm terribly nervous about that.

Also for the past 5 weeks I've been applying to several places for jobs, as a requirement to continue getting food stamps. Now I can certainly understand that they'd want to push me to find work partly so they don't have to give me money but I have mystery leg pain and dizziness problems but nothing specifically wrong with me so I can't get a break on this because I can't get a doctor's okay on me having any medical requirements as all my tests have been negative.

And finally I got really mad at a game my beloved and I play, called Fists of Fu. I mostly like the game and it doesn't lag too much (which is nice since my beloved and I live 7 time zones apart) but there has ben very little company support and I suspect it will be closed down soon. I just got mad at the fact that the game is very hard on melee characters and my playing today made me feel really useless and helpless, as if all I was doing was being a punching bag while my beloved did all the work. It wasn't really this way of course, it's just the other stuff making me overly sensitive and it made me want to lie down and cry for a while...which I did. I still don't feel perfect but I do feel better than I did a couple hours ago at least.