[Fey]

I'm so sorry. I wish, and I don't mean to come off as unfeeling, but I might, that I could trade you and take your problems and give you my 'hardware' as I've no intentions to use it. Talk with your doctor, get a second opinion with a specialist, and look for a support group locally(they exist I'm sure) of other women who have dealt with this. You might find that the doctors, to cover their butts, make the odds out to be untenable, when in fact they aren't. You will never know until you try, and have faith that if it's meant to be it'll be.

As for you boy. Look him in the eyes and tell him that he's being insensitive. How would he feel if he came home with his Mr. Friendly no longer able to work and you blithefully tell him 'That's okay honey, I'll get a pool boy for that.' That's what he did, he told you that YOU didn't matter, that all he wanted was a THING. I, personally, would have kicked him to the curb and told him to go find someone else...but I'm a bit of a b#tch.