[Pocket]

So just when I thought everything was going right in my life.. I have a panic attack..well make that two back to back. I know ift was my own way of telling me I need to get rid of everything that I'm hiding deep in my mind..

I hate the fact that I had it at work.. I was kinda frustrated but that kinda happenes when its busy but the frustration goes away when it dies down.

One of my coworkers came over to give me my first break. Well I was finishing up with my last customer but it was taking a while because he kept asking what his total was then taking something off then adding something totally different. He did that a good 4 times and so I had some items around the printer. Well my coworker made a remark and I snapped at him in front of the customers... I think that was a major trigger to the attacks..

It took me about an hour and 15 minutes to calm down from it. My CSM (Customer Service Manager) talked to me and told me there are resources for this kinda stuff offered through work but was unsure if it was for full time or if part time had limitations.



Why do I feel like I'm a fuck up? Why do I feel like I'm letting people down when this kinda stuff happenes?