[Quiet Man Cometh]

You mean mad at yourself for your reaction? All I an say right now is that if it's the first time you've encountered a situation like than then you really shouldn't be chastizing yourself for not acting the way you think you should have, and I highly doubt you're a sociopath for it. If you care enough to be bothered than that should tell you right there. I know people that died, one who was a young baby. I didn't see him after the fact but he was someone I knew by acquiantaince. I didn't do anything about it either, or even say I'm sorry for that matter. I think part of me didn't want to say much because a: it didnt' concern me, and b: I wasn't sure how they would react. Some people may not want people to bombard them with sympathetic wishes and such.

You may also be feeling grief but not completely aware of it. There are more ways to react to death than crying. I cried for my grandfather but not my cousin, and for my old dog but not the child I knew in hospital. That doesn't mean that I didn't care about them or that I'm brushing things off. There's another thread around here about the loss of a pet that might help you out too, just to mention.