[Misericorde]

So today, the secretary at my school hands me an envelope with all the Graduation details inside. After 7 years of highschool, I'm finally graduating. Something my mom wanted so badly for me, and something my dad wants for me. I should be ecstatic, right? Wrong.

My mom died in November, so she won't be there for my graduation. That was something I was ok with, and knew I could deal with. But today, when I got in the car and asked my dad if he'd come to the ceremony... All he could say was "if I have to".

What father on EARTH would say something like that to the daughter he's been pushing and encouraging and guilting into graduating? Can he not see how badly those words sting? It's like someone taking a thin whip and cracking me over the nipple with it.

I felt my heart almost shatter into a million pieces, and the worst part is I don't think he knows just how bad he hurt me. And I can't tell him either. I talked to my aunt and she said she'll talk to him, but this scares me. I don't want him to get mad at me for taking something too personally or the wrong way...

What should be something happy for me is just depressing me... -Sighs.- I wanna curl up in a ball and cry myself to death...