[Randomology]

Look, I don't need remorse or sympathy or comfort, I just need to vent. Mother's Day sucked. I had finished a M day card for my grandmother and had gone over to her house. Everything seemed fine. Last I heard she was off oxygen...Oh let me explain first.

My grandmother chain smokes and got lung cancer awhile back as well as some disorder that makes it hard to receive oxygen thru breathing. After awhile she was taking these pills and had gotten off the oxygen and was breathing normal.

Anyways everything seemed fine. Then I noticed after having a conversation, that not only did she not read my card Fizzyology and I made for her (which is not normal) but she was disoriented, dizzy and having trouble comprehending what everyone was saying. My mom came over too with a M day goodie bag and noticed her lips, her face, her fingers even, were blue.

So she's back on oxygen, meaning her health is failing. The worse part is, when everyone left the patio where we were sitting to go find her oxy tank, she looked at me and said, "sweetheart, I'm gonna die soon."

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So um..then I found out after a long day of interviews, which went great might I add, I got a call from my mother. Last night apparently grandma didn't get any oxygen from her breathing tube, turned up to max, collapsed and stopped breathing. She was rushed to the E.R. via ambulance and hasn't woken up since she passed out and currently has a breathing tube down her throat.

I'm mad, I'm upset, and I hate how no matter how many times I told her about those ****ing cigarettes, she wouldn't stop her G** D*MN SMOKING!! GYAH!

...SO..........yea, I'm..not happy. and I've been pretty damn low all day aside from what the misses did for me, bless her soul.
Okay, so I vented.