[Misericorde]

I am so sick and TIRED of living this shit storm that is my life. Honestly, it's like everything and anything that could go wrong, WILL go wrong. And this time, it's messing with the roof over my head.

So, let me start by saying this. I live in Canada, and I am on a Disability pension. From this, I get $750 a month. I also get another $220 a month from Canada Pension Plan because my mother was on CPP when she was alive. I get what is called a survivor's benefit. That means that I roughly get $970 a month to live with. From this money, I pay $450 rent, $130 cell phone bill [which is my cell phone and my dad's cell phone plan together], $120 cable/internet bill, and I would have to pay my hydro bill too if not for the fact that disability directly pays $80 to my hydro every month. But, even minus that. I pay $700 a month to live. That leaves me, roughly, with $270 for myself. Normally, that's all fine and dandy. But this is where the story gets shitty.

Back in February, CPP decided to stop payments to me, meaning I had $220 less a month. But, it just so happens that in February, I had a $350 hydro bill. This means that the $80 that auto-pays my hydro wasn't enough. I had to pay the difference. SO. I used the $750 a month I get from Disability to pay my rent, and I sent $200 to the hydro bill, assuming that my CPP could pay whatever other bills I had left no problem. And it wouldn't have been a problem, if the cheque had come in. But no. They cut it off because they needed ANOTHER FORM to prove I was a full time student. A form I had already sent in in September. Not only that, they were switching me from Child Benefactor to Survivor's Benefit. That takes 4-6 weeks. Needless to say, it is now almost May and I still haven't seen a dime from them.

Now, because of the debt I had to put myself in bill-wise in February, in March I had to pay the bills I couldn't pay in February [Cell, Cable/Internet, and even more Hydro]. This dipped into my rent money. So I borrowed money from my dad to be able to afford my rent. Fine. Great. But then came April. And I fell behind on bills AND rent. I still owe my landlord $150 for April's rent. This wouldn't be a problem... Except that the bank decided to take $200 off the $750 I got this month [STILL haven't gotten they money CPP owes me...] and because of this, I'm $70 short for my rent. And my landlord is "suggesting" I find somewhere else to live. Because of CPP constantly messing me up like this, I have been late for rent payment before. BUT I ALWAYS make sure my rent gets paid, even if it is late. But now that my landlord is oh so "kindly" making this "suggestion", I feel extremely victimized because of what CPP and the Bank are putting me through. I always make sure my landlord knows why I can't pay full rent at any given time, and I always make sure he knows when I can. I just don't know what to do, I'm too frustrated for this. My dad won't lend me the money and I don't have anyone else to borrow from...

Can anyone suggest anything I could/should say to my landlord? I have already told him that unless he evicts me [which legally, he can't, since there are no grounds for it], I will not be moving anywhere. But I fear it won't be enough... I'm pulling my hair out! UGH! Fml...