[Misericorde]

Originally Posted by Funkduder

Seri... no, not seri. Mesericorde. How do you view success? Rather, I think the better question is what do you value? You're obviously unhappy. You're envious of other people's success (or at least their looks that suggest they feel successful). You're hateful of your own body because you see it as an obstacle to your ...happiness? What I see is that happiness isn't weighed in pounds, but despite that, your unhappiness seems to be caused by how people see you (which you say is your weight) which leads me back to the first point.
What do you value and why?

I value health, love, family, and friendship. Not in that order, but yeah. I have only my father left, really, when it comes to family. My sister lives too far, and my other countless aunts and uncles live far as well, and my cousins. I only have one real life best friend, with two other minor friendships. I'm not happy... I haven't been happy in months. My unhappiness started in September 2010 when the one decent guy I have ever dated dumped me for no reason. I can't get him out of my head. As much as I want to be, try to be over him, I just can't be. He won't give me the time of day anymore. I miss him so much, and there's nothing I can do about it. I've never been so madly, deeply, truly in love in my life... As for health... My weight affects my health. It causes every body ache, every depressed state, every anxiety about the world and my connection to it that I have... In the end, my values are what drag me down the most, I guess...