[Funkduder]

Seri... no, not seri. Mesericorde. How do you view success? Rather, I think the better question is what do you value? You're obviously unhappy. You're envious of other people's success (or at least their looks that suggest they feel successful). You're hateful of your own body because you see it as an obstacle to your ...happiness? What I see is that happiness isn't weighed in pounds, but despite that, your unhappiness seems to be caused by how people see you (which you say is your weight) which leads me back to the first point.
What do you value and why?