[Misericorde]

I'd like to change everything. I want a new life. I want a life that isn't so fucking depressing. I'm tired of looking around me and seeing successful people, happy relationships, and just... People who seem to have no problems where I seem to have the most. I'm tired of wanting to murder every single smiling face I see because I can't have what they do, I can't be happy like them... But there's nothing that I can do. And the thing I hate the most? Is me. I hate who I am, physically and every other way possible. But mostly physically. I hate that no matter what I do for it, my body refuses to shed the weight I want to lose, as if it wants to torture me for the rest of my days.