[Misericorde]

It's not that. I love it here. It's just that, in my dreams, I get to see and spend time with my mom. I never want to wake up from the dreams, and I always do. I wish I didn't... I know it's weird to say. But yeah. I had a bit of a breakdown today about missing my mom and my OCD [fear of death] kicked in at the same time. I ended up crying myself to sleep after 'talking' to my mom for about half an hour. I dreamed of her. She told me that Heaven was great, that she was fine, that she loved me and missed me. I noticed that every time I cry/talk to her/think about her and then sleep, I dream of her. Always without fail... I love that, but I hate the lonely feeling it leaves when I'm awake. D<