[Ultima]

So, many of you have probably been confused about my gender. To me, that's actually a good thing. For those of you who have not been informed, I am genderqueer. This means that I do not consider myself a 'man' or a 'woman.' While I am biologically female, I do not like being called a 'girl' and 'she.' But at the same time, 'boy' and 'he' sound equally as wrong. I hate my girly given name and prefer a unisex one. I prefer to dress androgynously, but I really can't pull it off because of my D cup breasts. On my wedding day, I picture myself in a dress shirt and pants, not a dress. Every day, I try to train my voice to sound deeper and less girly.

But here's the thing. I haven't told my friends or family any of this. I have no idea how to. It would be easier if I wanted to be a man. I could just tell them, "Guys, I want a penis." But I don't. I'm afraid f I were to tell them I'm genderqueer, everyone, especially my dad, would say "... What the hell is that??"

What do you guys think I should do? What should I say? Should I call a family meeting? Or casually mention it at a dinner? Should I tell them each individually? Or should I not say anything and let them slowly figure it out on their own?

I may edit this post later to include answers to questions so you don't have to read everything.

I'm going to bed now, but please still post. I would really appreciate some opinions <3