[Archaic Kitten]

I don't wanna be stuc taking meds for the rest of my life! DX If I get a job and have to go to it every day of the week and be off on like... saturdays or sundays only... I'd have to take my meds... D:
When on my meds, I don't eat a single bit... Even after it wears off. I lose weight... I get all depressed and don't show much emotion, don't talk much.... etc. When I get home, my grandma says I look like a zombie. It's terrible! D: I even have suicidal and murderous thoughts, and get quite aggressive....
When off my meds, I can't control myself. I go crazy... I can't think straight, forget what I was doing or what I was supposed to do... but I eat nonstop...

I was off my meds last year for the second semester of school and failed 3 classes...
I'm sorta on and off with my meds this year, but I'm trying super hard to keep my grades up. Most of my teachers don't know about my ADHD, so my grandma has to tell them to keep an eye on me and all that. I'm doing a bit better... my grades are sorta flip-flopping from A's to C's or D's, then go up to B's or A's... sometimes down to F and then up to C, down to D, then up to A....

I'm having a very tough time in school.... and at home... it's not fun to live through this.... ;3;