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There's some good news: The occasional thoughts about what it would be like to die are normal. Many healthy people have them from time to time, and it's not a sign of anything wrong.

Believe me, I know what you're saying about not wanting to have chemicals change who you are. I'm ADHD and the medication significantly improves my ability to get work done, but it makes me EVEN MORE BORING than I already am. Even so, I've been having enough cases in recent history where my ADHD has really been getting in my way that I'm considering starting meds again (once I can afford them) just so I don't lose whole days staring off into space.