[Saiyouri]

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I have OCD and 3 anxiety disorders and recently became depressed again. I know what the trigger was and ever since that day I can't stop being sad, enjoy staring at a wall. >.> All the fun stuff of being depressed. I've had depression problems ever since I became a teen and then I got post partum depression I had to deal with alone and no medication even though I had thoughts of killing my kids. ; ; Therapist thought it was a good idea to call child services on me even though I never hurt them and I did everything right.

I have 2 more months to wait before I can go in for meds again. I'm already taking 3 for my problems and I want to go on depression meds. I have a child I have to take care of and when my depression kicks in for a day I just lay there passing out all day while he is stuck taking care of himself. Luckily he is 12, but still not a good thing a parent does. I have heard alot that depression medication makes people change alot, in the way that they aren't themselves anymore and I'm not sure what to do or say about that. I hope it doesn't do that to me. The only thing I have left in my life is cross stitching, nothing else interests me anymore. Even though I want to write alot, that no longer is a desire of mine. Something I'm trying to fix.

I wished I knew what to say to everyone how is feeling not themselves by being on meds. I really think that no mental disorders should happen to anyone. I hate them. Nothing good ever comes of it. And if there are disorders, all meds should work for people and no make them feel blah because of them. ; ; I understand how you feel Jenny and I really wished I knew what to say that could help you and make things all better for you. No one should suffer like you do or anyone else who has posted here. *hugs and hot cocoa for all*

I hope something works for you. I really do, what that is, I so wished I knew. *hands over kitty* I know my doctor suggested that I get a cat for my problems but I already had 4 when I first saw him, so he said that was a good thing. I guess cats help lower stress and help you with like depression. I know mine do. Especially on cat crack days ~_~ And when I hold one of them it makes me content when my depression kicks in. I just wished it wouldn't. I already lost alot of things in my life that I enjoyed doing because of my stupid problem, I really don't want to lose more. *slaps problems*

*hugs*

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