[Ginger]

I don't really know how to explain it.

I get all shaky and I start to cry when I assume someone is talking bad about me lately. Usually my assumption is right, which is why I react that way. But lately, I'm assuming everyone I know is.

I recently had a really bad experience with my boyfriend on the phone. I was yelling because I was angry at him, and he didn't tell me his brother was in the car with him. So his brother came up to me and asked why I'm so rude to my boyfriend, when really, my boyfriend was the one who was COMPLETELY disrespectful in the first place. I was talking to him on New Years about being touched inappropriately by family and I was crying at the time, and he wasn't listening to me at all. Instead, he got a boner and was humping me as I was telling him about something I never talk about. I haven't even really talked to family about it. What he did made me feel like he was one of "them". One of those people who had the nerve to disrespect my womanhood. I don't really feel that way about it anymore. I just feel like I can't trust him on the phone or on messenger anymore. I'm afraid someone might be listening in on the conversation or reading over his shoulder, even with him knowing. I don't think he knows how bad that makes me look, if I'm yelling at him and whoever hears doesn't hear MY side.

Is this social anxiety and does anyone else on Trisphee have it?