[Duchess]

-sigh- fuck it.

So much for being happy... I cracked. There we go.. crying buckets of tears. I probably look so fugly atm, not like thats any different from usually.

All the things that usually make me happy....... are tearing me apart. Reminding me of my failures... my failure as a human being. Why can't i do the things I want to? WHY. NOT.

Maybe I shouldnt want to do them....cause I'm a selfish ho bag. I should just be grateful. Sooooo many people worse off than me... so many people just SIMPLY worse than me. Which makes me a selfish ass bitch for wanting attention.

God I just want someone to choke me right now.. i need to feel SOMETHING... Happiness is obviously not an option......