[Yuki]

Well my friend decided I'm not good enough any more. She wanted to change and in order to do so she thought she had to drop her old trash. She changed like...completely, everything. THAT wasn't even her but she thought people would like her better that way. Nobody wanted to say it but everyone thought she had become weird, fake, a bitch. She did everything she was against before. She went against everything she stood for.

I tried to ignore her but things started smelling "fish" and I just had to ask her every now and then about stuff to hear what she had to say and of course she couldn't answer properly cause there was NOTHING to complain at. I told her she could have just told me years ago if something was wrong and she got even more pissed and never talked to me again. Ever again, not even did she say "hi". But I had to see her everyday anyways cause we went to the same class and sat by the same table every break. Cause I didn't wanna be all alone risking getting attacked by other kids in the hall ways so I hung out with other people.

You know what? I wished I never became friends with her in the first place. Because of her I couldn't get any other friends becuase whenever I talked to other guys she'd get pissed and jealous. She never said anything but I could tell. I know it's stupid to blame her but I couldn't just leave her there she was my friend. Apparently I should have cause she ended up shitting me.

Now add getting harassed everyday by other kids for stupid reasons and a retarded mom's boyfriend who also harassed me til I went nuts chewing on my own fingers. Plus finding out having a neurological decease that could have explained lots stuff but teachers decided to consider me dumb in the head and made me do shit instead of finding out years earlier.

Most kids in my situation would have stated drinking, smoking or even killed themselves. I have done neither. How do I deal with it? I don't.

*lolfail