[Sadrain]

... I don't want to sound like a teacher, but it seems that every time someone tries to come close to you, you push them away, and sometimes quite rudely. It is probably self-protection of sorts, but sometimes you push away someone who really wanted to talk you, not only find a weak spot to sink their fangs in. I am guessing that you act similarly in real life. I can't really give any advice, since I like to keep my distance as well until I feel I can trust those people (and sometimes, sadly, that feeling isn't right).