[Sadrain]

Well. Sometimes... people really know how you feel and wish they could help. It's not always really "oh, poor, helpless you" thing. But, in general, I know that sometimes being hugged and told "I'm sorry" makes you feel even more sorry for your self, to the point of really crying (which isn't always bad, since a good cry sometimes make things better, wash something away), and sometimes also feel like you are just doing the wrong thing by talking to them, as if you are bothering them and that in the end they will throw it in your face.

I had an experience where a really, really close friend told me that I can talk to her about EVERYTHING. That time was horrible in my life, so I ranted a lot. She seemed so understanding, supported me. And then one day when I said I couldn't RP/be cheerful, she started saying that I am ungrateful, whiny kid who makes everything much more worse than it is and just wants to be felt sorry for. We fought and went different ways, but she cried to our shared friends how horrible and heartless I am and from then on, those friendships were never like before, too. Not to mention, she tried to start up friendship one more time and if I hadn't been more careful, it had went down the exact same way... She contacted me again recently...

-sighs- Now I ranted, I guess. I fail at keeping my thoughts to my self for the most part, ahaha. XD;