[Chi]

Dear Self,
You're recently trying to wonder what's going on in front of you. It seems to be that a certain someone doesn't want to spend time with you. Or maybe it's that he/she doesn't see you as that way anymore. If that's the case, let go. And this new occurrence has left you really quite confused as to where to go from now. Was he/she possibly being serious or just kidding like he/she said? Who's to know? Maybe everything is all wrong and you should start over. I want to change how I act. I feel maybe what they're saying is true and you are a monster, but if it is, where do you start? How do you get better at these things and make things better for those around you? It's already getting complicated before it gets better. How do you fix this? Try something calming maybe? I don't know...