[Vava Voom]

How old are you? Anyway, like Jesc said, "I don't know if you still need help or if I'd be able to help you at all..." but I'm glad to offer my services in the support department. I think you shouldn't bring yourself WAY down the way you are saying. I think you should analyze what you're doing wrong, whatever it is, and test it out to see if that's what really is the problem. Test it out by changing your ways. You see people hate you for what you're doing, then do those things differently and see if the end result is the same. Change will not happen until you willingly make that first step of commitment, then the other steps will become more easier as you walk the path to bettering yourself.I also find it hard to believe that it will be like this forever. Life always makes payment dues as well, so be sure to do good things in life, because karma, as we know, is a witch, and what goes around comes around, so be sure to always be good and do good, cause when pay day comes you want it to be good. Oh and by the way don't be afraid of life and what it throws at you. Stand your ground, don't quit, because surviving the things in life just makes you stronger and wiser, and maybe you will help others that are in your same situation.