[Stabbsworth]

i am so sick and tired of this aphantasia and aphasia. i can't bloody THINK. it's all just static and muddled words and nothing fits together right!

and you know the worst fucking thing?! i don't KNOW what's causing this! i was supposed to be bright as a button, my mother was told this by the pediatrician!

murky says i'm being too harsh on myself, but what if this gets worse? i'm scared and frustrated. i was struggling to explain why i have to pay council tax to him, then when i calmed down i was able to explain the levels of local government to him. i should be able to explain why i have to pay council tax.

where the HELL did it all go wrong? is it because of that covid infection? my fucking father fucked me up more than i realized if so.

i was supposed to be smart.