[Merskelly Metalien]

;-; Had a sad/weird dream last night...
I was the worst mermaid princess/maidservant ever. </3 Like, I was both a maid AND the youngest daughter of the king, my dad, but not really my actual dad, just king of the ocean...
I also wanted to read some stories because that was like TV down there underwater, and I loved reading and music. ;u; But I wished I could escape my world and dive into another through a magic mirror, like the one in the book I was reading.
But I had duties. <:c And obligations. I was expected to be polite and help anyone I could.
And everything was a mess, even after I took care of it, I could barely clean up a single area of the royal palace by myself, and ontop of it, not only was nobody appreciative of my efforts, but they were rudely bitter about it.
Diplomatic visitors, royal family, tourists from across the ocean, even the palace guards and workers, all looked at me and commented on how slow I was and what a pathetic excuse for a maid I was, and how I should just give up, and made fun of how small and weak I was.

<:'C My handmaiden was the only one helping me, and she was so worried for me, that it didn't help any. My dad the king was going to have a fit if I wasn't working from morning 'til night. ;n; </3 And the royal princes from all seven seas visiting were all too mean to me or just ignored me...

I went to go rest in my room after my work, and not soon after, a knock came at the door. When I opened it, it was a diplomatic official and several other representatives, royals and paparazzi there all gathered around outside. The diplomat gave me a bunch of papers he said I had to read and sign before I gave them to my dad the king. They also started to kind of act weird when they told me I have to also attach the self-evaluation paper to the front so they know my name and signature is at the front. I said okay, and just watched some of them slowly leave while others stayed put, and shied back into my room...I think they were all holding in laughter, because as soon as I closed the door they all went away quickly, talking to one another, and I heard one snicker.
;_; I just tossed the papers on a shell table and flopped into bed to just cry. </3 It was terrible. I felt like the whole kingdom was against me and nobody liked me...
Why u gotta be so mean to me subconscious mind??? Q-Q </3 Why u gotta suddenly remind me of my crippling insecurity and irrational anxieties???