[Merskelly Metalien]

<x} That feeling, where you just wanna f*cking die already because you're alone and totally screwed everything up because that's just what you do...that's just something you can't help being, ;U; a total idiot failure...

And then you wanna dive back into your grave and just watch something nobody else will even watch with you, ;n;
because they're all too busy watching what they wanna watch, ;~;
and you get sick of watching it alone, so you peek out of your grave only to be reminded why you got back into it. TT~TT
*sob* and now you have to cry in front of your doctor... </3

Also, there is no happiness in me for making the Dean's List of my school. B[ It's dumb. This school is dumb. I am not special in any way. It's only because of my GPA score, because I owe the FA office, and I am not taking enough credits this semester. BC Whatever. I don't care. I'm not proud of any of it. I'm just there to learn sh*t, not workin' towards anything, aimlessly just learning things and wishing the school year was done already, and I can just focus on avoiding getting a job and spending the days trying to take care of myself... ;_; </3 If only I weren't me...maybe then someone would hire me..