[Stabbsworth]

essentially: i fucking hate having to beg for small dregs of attention while other people get plenty.

also, made a vent in the server that essentially detailed on me wanting attention but not wanting to come off as annoying or attention-seeking. got someone saying 'god i wish that were me', and because i can't really tell if they're being fucking rude or just joking around in an inappropriate place for it or not, i got fucked off and stewed over it.

addition 1 is spoilered because there's mentions of me being suicidal. don't worry too much about it.

addition 1: mum says i have it easy. i'm not sure what part of being so utterly hopeless for the future, not having the qualifications for a job and not being able to cook, plus having to scrape by on monthly pay while she gets it weekly because my dad does things the old-fashioned way is easy. (plus i'm, like. borderline suicidal most days. i wasn't expecting to live this long.)

addition 2: i had to explain sessionbox to someone when they could have easily googled it. if they want explanations, they can fucking pay me. i don't get paid for making art for a fandom.

also, tumblr fucked up and introduced a new beta thing that looks even worse than when they made the navy blue colour into a dark blue colour. the font doesn't fit, any artwork in a text post gets stretched, and, to top it all off, sessionbox is fucking broken and xkit doesn't work in the beta.