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o-o Hmm. Come to think of it Barker, yehh. You got a point. <:/ Also puppos! <x} I love that dogs and wolves are like epic cousins separated by man's involvement in domestication. :D They still good bois and good girls!

I do kinda feel more at peace with a smaller more closely knit group of people who genuinely socialize and help one another out of sheer humanity, and more stressed in an environment where I'm expected to submit my best work and have it compared to the other people around me to determine my knowledge, skill, self-worth, etc. :]
I think I'll move to Alaska. xD And learn to make jewelry! Lol, maybe not. But, >u>; I'd probably feel a lot less lonely and hopeless than if I stuck around in a place where I feel really chained down with obligations, responsibilities thrust onto me. <:[ I unfortunately have to eventually learn how to cope and survive in this heartless system of making a living, but I'd rather learn in a place where I am encouraged and comforted than in one without guidance or consideration for my limited knowledge. I'm afraid my only skill is writing. ^~^; and I can't do much with it. Or maybe I could, <:/ but I don't.
Come to think of it, :/ I'm seriously in a strange point in my life, where I'm not sure where to go anymore, and my body and mind are suffering a bit. <:[ It might not be a bad idea to ask for help, and I definitely feel like I should focus on getting and keeping myself healthy and prepared to stand on my own two legs, BEFORE I get to working towards a career and degree. <:\ So many other college kids here have good schedules and good personal health, positive outlooks, and seem to be doing way better than me. :[ I hate over positivity, and it annoys me, plus I got some depression issues and terrible habits, and like, don't make too many friends for long, >u>; also might not be the best when it comes to social interaction (*cough* silent ghost girl *cough*), but I don't gotta change myself too much to better myself. /:]
At least I think so. :/ Sorry, off topic!

The only way I think I can enjoy a class, is if I enjoy the teacher. B]
I have had terrible, boring history classes, but one teacher in jr. high I had was a CHARACTER! 8[ Like a literal character. He used to work at Disneyland and used to tell us crazy uncensored stories from when he used to be a staff member.
XD I remember HIM, more than the class, but he made history CRAZY! And history IS crazy. x'D Holy hell, was he loud and loved teaching American History without being overly patriotic or one sided textbook reliant about it all. He spilled the tea! <x] His name was Mr. Lee, and he was not Asian. He was a short black man with a santa belly, major staff sergeant moustache, nerdy glasses, balding and greying curly hair, and a pet Halloween decoration rat he named Rufus. <x'} I can't believe I still remember this much about him! I once tallied how many times he said, "Okay!" in one class and it totaled up to something like 63 times. x'D And he made it IMPOSSIBLE for anyone to sleep in class, because guess what? If you slept, he quietly snuck over to you in your desk, and woke you up with a loud funny noise. x'D Oh man. This guy was amazing. Probably the craziest of the fun teachers I had that still managed to get us to learn history.
For example, I remember him instilling in us not to make fun of anyone's last name in history, because back then a last name carried with it familial significance, and though names like Gaylord aren't common anymore, there are descendants of these family names in history all over the place, and few names have died out as time has gone by. :] It was cool to learn about the 4 president assassinations in US history through his dramatic re-enactments. x']
Ahh, good times! I miss teachers like that, which are a rarity.