[Merskelly Metalien]

;u; I feel so unlikable. Had an in-class presentation for my midterm, and just my honesty, my jokes, everything...hardly a response...other guy does the same topic. Everyone loves his presentation..even me..felt like he stole the show and saved it..I don't even think I was clapped for.

Why am I letting this bug me? Why did I even try when I was so tired? Why do I even care? ;_; Why am I questioning my non-existent charisma? >->; and doubting if I'll ever make friends with a human being ever again? I just felt like giving random people compliments and affirmations out of sheer spite today. >~> Because when do I ever get any from people I walk past? *looks at husbando* <B[ Rarely. *nods then shakes head* Rarely.

And now I've completely returned to my poor unhealthy habits. ;_; Eatin' pizza and fast food because I hate myself, sleeping late because I wanna work, and neglecting exercise because I forget. What am I supposed to tell my therapist? ;n; </3 I feel like such a dissapointing failure..