[Francisco]

its lame and sad, youve been warned

I hate me.
I feel like everyone else hates me.
I can't talk right, I can't work right, I can't fucking exist right.
All I ever do is try and it never goes anywhere.
Everyone else is just moving on without me and apparently that's just how it is.
What the fuck can I do? I can't make people like me. I can't make people want me around. I just. Can't make friends. Is it because I'm sad? Is it cuz I hate myself? Am I just genuinely repulsive? Am I too nice?? Seems like I had a lot more friends when I was a piece of shit. I just wanna know what the fuck is wrong with me.
All people ever tell me to do is try and that doesn't fucking do shit. Why am I still trying?? There is NO point.
Maybe I'm trying too hard. Maybe that's why people don't like me. But when I "Just be myself!", people run for the motherfucking hills, so. Idk. Guess I'll die. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯