[Merskelly Metalien]

.n. I'm ace but I didn't always think so. It wasn't until I had a couple different relationships that I finally figured out that I wasn't sexually attracted to either of them, and that one of the relationships out great but we weren't compatible, while the other turned out to be with, well, the worst person I've known... :c
In fact, they're probably partially the reason I'm very closed off, have extremely poor self image views and am saddled with some anxiety...

But good news is I'm comfortable with my sexuality now. :] Sex just doesn't come across to me as something I want to explore. And I actually used to want kids when I was a teenager, but now that I've matured, I don't. <x} Very don't. It's not happening, not going to. It's one of the things I'm most certain of actually. (Sorry mom and dad.)

I'm still dealing with myself but I'm not ashamed. <:c Just kind of depressed about how I can't fit in very well with anyone, and not being as skilled and confident as my family in interacting with others anymore.