[Quiet Man Cometh]

Originally Posted by Gallagher

nah dude, you're good, that's not too heavy

y'all wanna hear heavy

my uncle this past week has been in the hospital, and it was bad, but we thought he was gonna make it.

not so anymore.

they went and put him under so he wouldn't suffer through the end, because it's gonna be bad, but it didn't take correctly. he was sedated, but not unconscious. he was still aware, but unable to move or communicate. and they talked about his soon death around him. talked about the hopeless situation his kids would be in. talked about harvesting his organs.

and he could hear them

and he couldn't tell them he could hear them

and they didn't notice until he was crying

and i'm

a little fucked up right now

this is not okay. nothing about this is okay. every single aspect of this situation is entirely wrong and fucked up and no one is okay.

fokkin, daily awful thread? here's some awful to satisfy your monthly quota of awful. you're welcome.

My dad is going as well. We learned in the spring he had cancer, and from the docs we thought he had a couple years if chemo went alright, but they weren't entirely straight. He has an incredibly aggressive form of esophageal cancer that comes from acid reflux damage. The chemo failed and the tumour is too big for surgery. They've given him 6 months. We don't live together, so my sister and I went over to visit him yesterday. Seeing how he looks, I doubt he has even that long. The punch to the gut is that this could have been prevented so many times. He complained for years about his stomach and no one went further then prescribing meds. When they did feel they had to do a test, a power outage delayed it by three weeks. Just that three weeks might have been just enough to put the cancer past treatment stage. My dad always said he would die before my stepmom, but none of us thought it would be this soon.

My uncle died roughly two weeks ago. My aunt who was married to him is in dire health, more-so than normal (we share the same chronic illnesses) and it wouldn't be surprising if she goes at any time, and I worry about how my mother will handle all this when things finally end. I'm holding myself together with distractions and things to do.