[dirkydoodle]

I missed the bus so I'm gonna have to take a different bus which is a different route and mm-mm nope not gonna like this
especially since my headphones just went on me which means no music on this unknown bus route and I'm gonna have to buy new ones tomorrow when I get running shoes or no music for gym tI me that I'm trying to get in
its been hard to take care of myself again since I feel like I'm an unloveable piece of trash but I'm doing small things to make myself feel more tolerable but also isolating myself until it seems like anyone even notices my absence lol
I really need to learn to be nicer to myself towards things I can't control, and fix things I can contol that I feel is a problem (i.e. my weight, which isn't even just me saying I look fat and ugly it's literally that I'm unhealthy and probably slowly killing myself from it)

idk I'm just realizing a lot of stuff and feel so alone but whatever

anyways the current song that I feel matches these feelings perfectly is "hold me tight or don't" by fall out boy sooooo idk what I'm saying I'm getting a little rambly now lol oops