[EverAshwood]

I can't seem to focus on anything right now. Can't seem to enjoy anything. I feel... numb. And I know what it means in the cycle of depression. Usually, I'd smoke a bowl and I'd come out of it, but I've got shit. So now I'm drinking again and I know I'd hate myself if I weren't so numb right now, especially knowing it'll absolutely fuck my back tomorrow.

I just want to feel