[Patcharhoo]

I ran away from my family around the age of eighteen to escape from a pretty abusive mother after my ill father passed due do head trauma issues. From the age of fourteen to eighteen I stepped in for my mother and took care of my disabled father until he left me and I had waited until then because I knew the guilt of leaving him with her would have eaten me up inside.

Anyways, I haven't changed my cell number in all these years so my family keeps calling me and i'v grown a huge phobia of even touching my phone. I don't want to speak to them at all, but I also can't grow the balls to fully cut them out. They always call around the holidays and I take forever to listen to their voicemails they leave. It always makes me break down completely. My mother's messages are always the worst though.. It's like something breaks inside of me completely breaks for several days.