[Moonshadow]

I get so pissed off when friends use me. They borrow money, never pay it back, only one friend ever paid money I loaned her and I am glad because it was for $2k. I feel that people only want me when they want something, if they don't want something they never bother calling me to go out. I had such a hard time accepting this.

I made peace with this. I learned to spend time alone, with my thoughts, with my books, my tv. Now I don't invite anyone to go anywhere, if I want to do something I do it by myself. I wait for people to call me, and I've found that those people are the ones that care about me, that want nothing from me, that just want to make a connection. I've also learned that people can only be who they are, they cannot be who I wish them to be.

It has been a learning time for me, and I've come out so much stronger and happier.