[trystan830]

my little nephew Ryder was born in November 2016. we visited my brother and sister-inlaw when Ryder was about a month old, and my sister-inlaw said that i just looked really awkward holding him. before my kids were born: i never babysat when i was a teenager, i never ogled babies, never wanted to hold them; it just wasn't a thing for me. so, yeah, i guess it is different when they're your own.

although, to be honest, my kids are good kids, so there is that.

and really, though, there's nothing wrong if you don't want kids. they're not your thing.