[SparX]

I feel so. . .blank.
I am not here, I am not anywhere. I am unsure if I am existing, or going through motions like a machine.
I have attempted to reach out to different people in the past few weeks. Maybe a new perspective would benefit me? But no, rather it shows me a new perspective of how the world is, when no one acknowledges a word. It's quite odd. As of late it seems I can scream and cry and literally plead for help and yet. . .* Yet no one does a thing.
They say all you need to do is ask. . . Well I have asked, I have pleaded, I have yelled and yammered until my mental voice cannot scream anymore.
If everyone else is struggling to swim, why would I expect them to help me from drowning. . .