[Worm]

Whenever I try to open up about my depression, I am shot down. I am reminded that pretty much everyone I know struggles with depression and/or anxiety.

I can't stop picking my fingers, to a point where they are scarred and bloody. My boyfriend can't support my emotional states, so I keep it inside. I've been feeling so dissociated and so distant, but I feel like I have to remain charming and happy so I don't bring anyone else down. And not only that, I just feel like its not a big deal. Someone's got it way worse than me. So I hide in my pain, I bury myself in blankets and I sleep for 12 hours.

I used to take 6 different medications for my schizo-affective disorder, and after I got ECT (electro-convulsive therapy), I thought I was better. To my dismay, it was only a short amount of time before my anxiety, depression, dissociation and PTSD triggers returned. I don't want to go back on medications. I don't want to go to therapy, they always send me to the hospital just for letting out my emotions.

I feel alone. I just want to sleep my life away....

There. There's that.
Hope I didn't make anybody else sad...

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