[Ginger]

Natsu, you have been through so much. I never realized. I'm sitting in a restaurant at 4 in the morning. I slept in my car until 2. My 8 year relationship has ended, and I will be starting school next month with no job and no home. And here you are, surrounded by people who would rather die. I feel like your friend wasn't mentally stable when he took his life. It wasn't your fault. None of it. That is a choice people make for themselves. You are mentally capable of pulling through. Seek therapy. I had a childhood therapist for 7 years and she helped me through things when my mom wasn't mentally stable, which was and still is normalcy for her. I'm not really sure what else to say, but I really empathize your situation. I can't imagine. There are people who care about you and your well-being. Don't forget about them.