[McSwiggins]

Do you have trouble with tone markers is what you mean? There's a chart, I'm sure you've seen it but you should probably look it over every once on a while when learning pinyin. Its okay to need to look at it more than once. I encourage my students to refer to it if they arent sure, rather than guess what tone the marker means. Never feel bad for needing to review something, even if you think it should come easily.

How I learn is I memorize vocabulary and use them as often as I can in every day life. Like, I will learn fruits and say them to myself as I pick out fruits in the store. Like, I will say at the store, "I need a tofaa for a snack tomorrow." Tofaa being apple. Plus I do lots of learning exercises to get free time.

I would but I already go through enough anxiety, anger, depression etc. I'm an alcoholic because I find being drunk easier than feeling these. I'm struggling with another addiction due to ptsd. I've struggled with addiction since I was a kid. I wont be able to handle it at the moment.