[daikokunyo]

Ugh doesn't it suck?!
That's definitely comforting, that there's not just one chance at it. I really like the idea of being a librarian, too bad my family would never fund me studying that haha. I'm pretty happy with what I'm studying now though. What did you major in the previous time?

Also, you are super brave. To fight for the things you want from life even though your body is often such an obstacle.

I guess I'm finding hostel life difficult because a) the horrible public bathrooms, b) the lack of control over what food I get to eat, and c) just the whole structure of things. Morning classes. The overall physically draining experience that a college day is. Losing loads of time in the bathroom when you need that time for homework.

Also, the fact that it's an hour's travel to the nearest grocer's. The streets don't even have street lights, so plenty of mugging and harassment. Which feeds into b) and also means I can't see a doctor, because it'd take four hours travel for one visit.

Sorry for textwalling a self-centered ramble