[Suzerain of Sheol]

I have been in utter despair for the past thirty hours or so. Had a nasty fight with my father today about it, and almost got hauled off to the ER last night for the panic attack I was having. I just feel absolutely broken inside now. The only thing I can even think of to compare it to is if I had been old enough on 9/11 to understand the context of what had happened. It just feels like the world is ending. I've been trying so hard to distract myself, but I just can't help checking forums or newsfeeds and getting a new hit of doom to bring me down.

Not handling this well, and it hasn't even really begun yet.