[Lawtan]

Terribly, to be honest. I am past the point where what I learn I can understand and retain. And I am fairly certain by now that my depression & anxiety is at least partly seasonal - late fall through to spring.

Mainly because I was doing okay, and suddenly negative thoughts, fears, and all started cropping up and causing me to miss classes and get behind. Also feeling more morbid at the moment, cynical, and may be a bit more harsh than I want to be...

I want to hurt myself at the moment. I am familiar with the feeling and likely not at risk...just had hoped when it went away for a while that it wouldn't be back...