[Pinkie]

Honestly Coda...I have done that for so long...but when nothing changes how can one still believe it?

I can hope and wish for things to change. Hell I try my hardest to sorround myself with nothing but positivity but even then my thoughts are dark and I can't help it.

I want to be positive and I want to be happy but it's...just not...doable. I don't know. I just don't know what to think.

I have grown so acustumed to having masks every second of everyday. It's hard to even just think of a life without a mask...